Making an Effort - Reality

Hm, should I be productive today?...

As it turns out, I kind of need to be. I've got some serious deadlines. Remember, breath, relax, let the pressure drip off you. Until it forms of puddle of despair were dodged responsibility lies. -_-

Well, maybe that wasn't the best way to deal with it. I will admit I can work myself up sometimes. I do need to make sure I don't overreact. After all, an exam will be done well only if you have a clear mind. As much as I'd like to think I over prepare, most of the time I don't and regularly feel like I under prepare, as I'm sure many of you will agree with. But the same does apply to work. I feel I push to the limits, I'm not only a procrastinator (great name for a new superhero,) but also someone who loves to work under pressure and often late at night. This may lead to an awkward hiring process, where I do minimal work during the day and come in the next morning with a stack of paperwork.

 - Is that really the best way to spend your life?
 - Well, no. It isn't.
 - You better change yourself then!
 - Actually for once, random voice, I agree with you.

Sometimes it's good to change yourself. With my birthday coming up, maybe I should set this as a target for the year ahead. Maybe people will laugh at my lack of success or my over optimism. But this is something we all have to face. We like to think we can change. But many cannot make the effort. Maybe this is why we find it hard to change to a younger society. But is this stubbornness or experience in life.

You can always surprise people, but surprising yourself is harder.

-|CJ|-