Spring Break Stress - Reading

Half term has been.... nice.

Well, I call it half term, but its actually a full term. Then again "Full Term Break" doesn't have the same ring. So lets compromise with the Americans way of describing this time; Spring Break. The weather here is sunny and quite windy, so exactly how you expect in the UK. -_-

But I get off topic. These 2 weeks have been vital for me to organise myself for the final term of education. *insert dramatic music* When I think about it, I realise just how quickly time has past, and anyone who's gone through this before, or are going through it, will know what I mean when I say that I'm a little scared.

When people ask me, 'whats the most important thing in your life?', I expect most people to come out with the usual; Family/ Friends/ Happiness etc. But for me it is something else. For me, security is the biggest thing. The knowledge to know where I'll be in the future to have things set out. Because right now, I don't.

I look at some friends, they have got University places or Jobs and I envy them. Not because, of their high grades/ high income, but because of their security. The fact they have their life set out. I even have one friend who's moving into their own home soon. As a 17 y/o that takes guts, and that's something I lack.

As much as I stand up in front of people and rant and present, the ability to take things into my own hands has been something that has always held me back. Whether it be life/ love/ jobs/ education, I've never had any self confidence.

Now don't get me wrong. I'm not being all sad and depressive about this. I'm not trying to be an emotionally scarred child, an attention seeker or a depressive...

 - You do know you've just alienated most of your audience
 - I'm sure they'll understand
 - Unlikely

Well, with hardly any of you left, I should probably mention the holidays. Well I'm glad to mention that I'm now doing something with some worth in my life. Which should be a good basis for finding a job or apprenticeship at the end of the year. The only thing is it has taken up more time than I suspected. As a result, I've been a little behind on revision. Still, life goes on and I will try to work towards the exams. No matter how much I think I can't. Also, (as of today) I've finally finished the practical side to some of my coursework. Little victories.

Also, for anyone who was wondering why this is classed as "Reading", well.... I had to read up on my exams. There! That's a (weak) link. That'll do. But to all my friends who feel they can't or don't want to carry on, remember;

Some targets can only be justified after they've been completed.

-|CJ|-